New Project - About Drugs

I started one of my slated projects this week and I think it's so crazy and unique that I will be talking excitedly about it, and I am sure there will be misunderstandings about my emphasis or intentions. All of my work deals with adults themes, and I get excited about every project I do, which reflects my excitment about the artistic work I am creating, not that I am ever excited about unsavory elements that I am emphasizing for a purpose with it. I am sure many creatives face similar dynamics with their works.

Let me be clear about my stance on drug use. I have never done hard drugs a day in my life. In my family, we never stayed on any addictive medications following medical proceedures. The few times I have had surgery, after the first two week maximum of any habit forming substances being used for post proceedure recovery, we have religiously demanded to be switched to non habit forming alternatives. I highly recommend this for patients taking control of their own self-care.

I have made this disclaimer many times this week in introducing this new project, but let me repeat it here. I am writing about a seven day drug trip which caused me to have hallucinagenic experiences, and that was while I was in the ICU fighting for my life. #SpoilerAlert Doctors prescribed me a "cocktail" of opioids and narcotics, then treated me like I was a crazy person for not knowing where I was - until my father arrived a week later and demanded they end any course of treatment that involved that severity of substances.

It was hell. It was hell coming back from almost dying. They bragged that they saved my life, and my response was "who asked you to?" The fact that I can now take that experience and turn it into something that doesn't exist - a full book by a woman about a drug trip - is kind of the source of my excitement. I feel that after going to hell and back, that is kind of my right to get to celebrate that I can do something now very few people have done, and to celebrate that this project is so nuts! Please keep these things in mind when you see my comments throughout the process, so I am never put in a defensive position or having to explain that repeatedly.